Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Pehli Mohabbat

Yun to wo bolta nahi kuch
Par chup bhi nahi hai
Ankhein karti hain dil ka hal byaan

Duniya se chahta hai chupana
Batana bhi chahta hai
K kyun hai ye dil bekaraar

Sehma hua hai thoda
Aur khush bhi bahut hai
Pehla pehla hai jo pyar

Ehsas pehli mohabbat ka
Izhar pehli Mohabbat ka
Anmol hota hai
Khushian to aati hain aur bhi kai
Pehli mohabbat ka andaz kuch aur hota hai

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

I think of You


I look around
I feel lonely
I close my eyes
And I think of you

I look around
Surrounded by you
I take a step
Try to touch you

I look at you
And that bright smile
I smile with you
And I look at you

I wish you were here
Every moment
Till that time
I will think of you
So I close my eyes
And I think of you

Sunday, July 17, 2011

A lucky breakdown

Mumbai never sleeps they say. At anytime of the day you can see autos and taxis covering the face of the city. In short, Mumbai is cramped-in the locals, on the roads, on the beaches or wherever you go. There are people who love the city and there are people who hate the city. You can’t be neutral to Mumbai.
Manju was an auto rickshaw driver in Mumbai. It was one of those cramped, hot and humid afternoons in Mumbai. There was nothing special about the day. It was just one of those days where Manju would travel almost the entire city, get struck in some traffic jams and be exhausted at the end of the day. It was round about 3:00 p.m. and Manju was currently passing the Veera Desai Road after having dropped a passenger at the Andheri Sports Complex.

Shreya was in a very foul mood. Her car had broken down. She had been standing on the side of the road for the last 15 min after having waited for a good half an hour in the car. The driver had tried his best but he had not been able to fix the problem. “Why have you not called a mechanic till now?” blasted Shreya.

“I have Mam. He will be here any moment.”
“And how much time will he take to repair the car?”
“Don’t know mam. All depends on the problem. I have not been able to figure it out.”
“What the hell. I am going to get late and you know I never get late to any of my functions. Get me an auto!”
“What?”
“Ya. Get me an auto.”
“But Mam, it won’t be appropriate for you.”
“What is not appropriate is me standing on the side of the road and waiting for the car to be fixed when there are people there waiting for me. So just do as I say.”

The driver tried to stop a couple of autos but none of them seemed interested in going to Bandra. Even a couple of taxis gave him a cold shoulder. Meanwhile Shreya’s frustration was increasing by the moment and she was about to vent out all her anger on the driver when an auto pulled by and agreed to go to Bandra.
“hum hain tere deewane, deewangi ki kasam” were the first words she heard as she got into the auto. She was thrilled to listen to that song. It was one of her personal favourites as well.

Shreya: Kitna time lagega pahunchne mein?(How much time will it take to reach)
Manju: Aj traffic thoda zyada hai mam. Ghanta bhi lag sakta hai.(It can take upto an hour as the traffic is too much)

 After some time she realized that among all the songs that had played till now, the only thing that was common was the actress who was she, herself.  As another chartbuster featuring her started to play in the background, She decided to start off a conversation with the autowallah.

Shreya: Ye to sabhi us Shreya actress ke gaane hain na? (All these songs have been picturised on the actress Shreya?)
Manju: Han Madam (Yes, Madam)
Shreya: Aapko achi lagti hai kya? (Do you like her?)
Manju: Han Madam. Maine unki sabhi picture dekh rakhi hain. Mujhe wo bahut zyada pasand hain. (Yes Madam. I have seen all her films. I like her a lot.)
Shreya: Acha, kya acha lagta hai unmein? ( What do you like about her?)
Manju: Madam wo kehte hain na k wo poora package hai. (As they say Madam, She is a complete package)

Shreya couldn't control her laughter after hearing this. Manju also started to laugh a but as he saw Shreya laughing. 

Shreya had had a tough day till now. She had a very bad fight with her boyfriend, who happened to be an actor himself. She was feeling very sad and depressed because of the constant fights and quarrels she had been having with him. Her latest film was not performing well at the box office. She had just got to know in the morning that a leading cosmetic brand she endorsed had decided not to renew her contract. She had read an article in one of the leading film magazines where the author had declared her as a thing of the past.  To add to that, her car had bust in the middle of the road. She was feeling as if everything was going against her. But, this auto journey and talking to someone who totally adored her was a breath of fresh air for Shreya. It was something she seriously needed to rejuvenate herself.

As Shreya and Manju kept on talking about Shreya and her movies without Manju having any idea about who he was talking to, Manju asked, “Ye mooh pe kapda kyun le rakha hai apne?”(Why have you wrapped your face with a cloth?)

Shreya: Wo dust padti hai na(Because of the dust.)
Manju: Hmmm. Waise apki aankhein Shreya ji se bahut milti hain. Aur aawaz bhi thodi unke jaise hi.(You eyes and voice are like Shreya’s)
Shreya started laughing and said “Thank You.”
Shreya was thinking, “Why did he say voice is also somewhat like her. I am her! Do I actually sound different on screen? Or is it because of all this traffic? Or is it because of the dubbing?”

No one had ever mentioned something like this to her. And if someone had, she wouldn’t have cared. She was at the top of her career till about 6 months back. But her last two movies had bombed at the box office and critics had also slammed them. There was a growing sense of insecurity in her. Anything anyone was saying was having a huge impact on her now.

Shreya again engaged Manju in some chit chat. She asked him about what time he starts his work and till what time he goes on. She asked him about his family, his native place and a whole lot of other things. Manju was surprised to see someone asking so many questions. Most of his passengers just sit and he drops them . A few yeses and nos apart, he hardly talked to his customers. But he was liking this conversation.
Shreya: kaisa lagta hai sara din shehar ghumte rehna. Hum logon ko to apne kaam mein dhang se shehar dekhne ka bhi time nahi rehta.(You must like driving throughout the city all day. We don’t even get the time to explore the city because of your schedules)

Manju: Are Mam, sochne ki baat hai. Sara din kaun itni garmi mein auto chalana chahta hai. Par pet ke liye karna padta hai.(Its just a way f thinking Mam. Who wants to drive an auto al day in this heat? But you have to do it to earn your bread.)

Shreya knew he was right. She hadn’t thought through before saying this. She felt bad for having asked this.
After sometime, Manju asked, “Aap kaam kya karti ho?” (What work do you do)

Meanwhile Shreya had fallen asleep. Manju noticed this and kept on driving.

After another 10 minutes, Manju woke up Shreya and told her that they were about to reach. As he was pulling up the auto, he asked again, “ Aap karte kya ho waise?” (What work do you do?)

As a few press reporters saw her and came running, She removed the cloth from her face and said, “ Actress hun.” and gave Manju a smile. Manju was astonished and he couldn’t control his happiness. He asked her for a autograph which she readily gave. He also asked if he could have a photograph with her. She said, “Why not?” and asked one of the bystanders to take a pic on Manju’s phone.

She said “Thank You” to Manju and moved towards the press. Meanwhile a few press reporters surrounded Manju to ask about what had happened.

“Shreya travels in an auto” was the headline that day with a subheading “Autowallah’s Dream comes  True.”

“Failing star’s last ditch effort for publicity” read another headline. Shreya looked at it and just laughed and kept the paper away.

Sometimes we feel that nothing is going right or that life is unfair or million such things. But, in the end the smallest of things/occurrences bring us content and happiness which makes those not-so-good times totally worth it.

*A work of fiction

Saturday, May 21, 2011

I Hope its Me


I don’t knw what you want
I hope its me
I hope its me

In the night when you sleep
When you sleep, When you dream
There is a face that you see
I hope its me
I hope its me

When you think you’re caught
When all hope is lost
The thought that lets you free
I hope its me
I Hope its me

When you are in a bad mood
Nothing seems right
Those eyes bring you glee
I hope its me
I hope its me

When that D-day comes
When you say I will
Someone on his knees
I hope its me
I hope its me

I don’t knw what you want
I hope its me
I hope its me

Friday, May 20, 2011

The Curious Case of Ram Jethmalani

Ram Jethmalani can arguably be called one of India's best lawyers, which is a very subjective term so lets call him one of India's most paid lawyers. But he is weird. If you think he is not, wait and read further!

He takes a moral high by fighting against the black money stashed outside India. He joins Anna Hazare against corruption. Then, he defends Kanimozhi?? Do you know he also defended Harshad Mehta & Ketan Parekh. If these names haven't rung a bell, let me remind you that these were the people who were behind the biggest stock market scams in India. Isn't that Black money Sir?

He has also defended some very high profile but infamous names like Manu Sharma & Afzal Guru. Afterwards, he has used excuses like , "Didn't want Afzal Guru to die easily but rot in jail" and "I have some obligations to some peoplE" in Manu Sharma's case.


He has had a very strange Political career as well. He was a minister in the Vajpayee government and then he went on to fight againt AB Vajpayee in the 2004 Lok Sabha Elections and in 2010, he was again a BJP MP in the Rajya Sabha. He has also started a couple of political outfits in the past which didn't really pick up.

I am not judging him. He certainly is one of India's top lawyers and everyone has a right to proper defence in a court but for a person taking high moral ground of issues of black money, Should he be taking such cases?

All I am saying is that he seems to be a confused personality.



Saturday, May 14, 2011

Filled With Burden

I aint a soldier who will look back
In front I see a man just like me

I will catch the fish in the sea
Her fault is that I am hungry

I am furious & I am angry
I will take it out on you

I just have to make it through
No one cares how or why

Always coming up with a new lie
Trying to hide my sins

Having lost myself for those wins
I keep wishing for more

One day will crash into the floor
Filled with burden is my sack

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Osama gone, Mystery remains


Almost the entire peace loving world is celebrating the killing of Osama Bin Laden, the rest (peace loving) are busy trying to read between the lines in this whole affair. Osama has died but the mystery remains.

So much is there which needs to be answered(and the list is not robust)..

1.       What was Pakistan’s role in this whole operation? Did they know or did they not?
2.       If Pakistan didn’t know, as the US and Pakistan claim, why was the areas cordoned off and electricity cut off in the region?
3.       Did Pakistan know about Osama being in the region? They say no but I find it difficult to believe. Even if for a moment you assume that he didn’t move in and out of the house, what about his dialysis? USA claims no dialysis equipment has been found so wasn’t the Military hospital in the vicinity the only possible option?
4.       Living there is one part but OSAMA BIN LADEN shifted to a high security area in the heart of Pakistan and no one seemed to notice. I find it hard to believe.
5.       On a similar note to the last point, US forces had the house in question on surveillance(right next to the Pakistani Military academy) And no one noticed. If this is true, it doesn’t put Pakistani forces and intelligence in good light.
6.       Why did the White house suddenly chance its stance about Osama being armed to being unarmed in 2 days? If he was unarmed, why wasn’t he captured? They say he was killed while resisting arrest, well can’t more than a dozen trained Navy seals arrest an unarmed person?
7.       He was unarmed they say. It would be a fair assumption that even Osama wouldn’t carry a gun 24*7 but the operation lasted for 40 minutes according to the White House which means it took them 40 minutes to reach Osama and even after those 40 minutes, he was unarmed. Are we trying to say that the World’s most wanted man was living in a house without any ammunition?
8.       Last but not the least, Why doesn’t Obama want us to see the proof?!


Like I said before, all the good people in the World would have liked to see the end of Osama but at the same time everyone would have wanted this end to be final and free of controversies. This seems like a screenplay in narration rather than the end, which we all want to see.